Hello Life,
How are you? Well, this is something I should ask myself, not you. You have been so nice to me and always so. You have given me things that I could only dream about. But there is still emptiness somewhere. Are you aware of it? Yes, you are! Who else would be?
They say life is always a struggle. I always knew that, and I was always ready for it – the struggle. I was ready and preparing myself for the struggle all the time – the one that gets you going with life; the struggle that you have to experience while getting on with your career, family, friends and everything else. I was prepared for it. And if you look behind, in the past 10 years or so, I have not done very badly, have I? No!
But the struggle has never ended. And it will not end, till I breathe last.
I know this all!
Then, what is that that is missing? Something is missing, and I am sure of it. The struggle has been within myself. There are some questions that I want answers for. I guess it is time to get to the basics, get a pencil and paper and write down things that are bothering me. This is one exercise I have done before and have advised my friends to do so too; however, I have not done so for a long time, it seems and I think this is high time I do that.
What are the things that are bothering me now?
What are the possible causes for these?
Can these be resolved by me or do I need to seek someone else’s help in this?
What do I need to do to get these resolved?
And so on…
There are many questions I want answers for. Most importantly, I have so many things in life that I know are pending and these small, but important jobs that are pending are creating more pressure on me. I can understand and can feel it immensely. Prioritizing things in life, small or big has been a challenge and I am not very good at it, it seems. What to do now? What to do later? Which one to start with?
Time… I need more time…
Is asking for some time for myself, being selfish? I am not sure. I want to hear things that I want to hear. This is again, a problem.
As I type, I get flooded with many more questions. I need to answer each of them, I know. The first step is always tough. Let me take this step. Let me take the very first step and I am sure I will see an end of all these. Maybe…
How are you? Well, this is something I should ask myself, not you. You have been so nice to me and always so. You have given me things that I could only dream about. But there is still emptiness somewhere. Are you aware of it? Yes, you are! Who else would be?
They say life is always a struggle. I always knew that, and I was always ready for it – the struggle. I was ready and preparing myself for the struggle all the time – the one that gets you going with life; the struggle that you have to experience while getting on with your career, family, friends and everything else. I was prepared for it. And if you look behind, in the past 10 years or so, I have not done very badly, have I? No!
But the struggle has never ended. And it will not end, till I breathe last.
I know this all!
Then, what is that that is missing? Something is missing, and I am sure of it. The struggle has been within myself. There are some questions that I want answers for. I guess it is time to get to the basics, get a pencil and paper and write down things that are bothering me. This is one exercise I have done before and have advised my friends to do so too; however, I have not done so for a long time, it seems and I think this is high time I do that.
What are the things that are bothering me now?
What are the possible causes for these?
Can these be resolved by me or do I need to seek someone else’s help in this?
What do I need to do to get these resolved?
And so on…
There are many questions I want answers for. Most importantly, I have so many things in life that I know are pending and these small, but important jobs that are pending are creating more pressure on me. I can understand and can feel it immensely. Prioritizing things in life, small or big has been a challenge and I am not very good at it, it seems. What to do now? What to do later? Which one to start with?
Time… I need more time…
Is asking for some time for myself, being selfish? I am not sure. I want to hear things that I want to hear. This is again, a problem.
As I type, I get flooded with many more questions. I need to answer each of them, I know. The first step is always tough. Let me take this step. Let me take the very first step and I am sure I will see an end of all these. Maybe…
Simple living high thinking... We should live our life like this.. I think so. But again it depends.. My simple living policy might not match with others!! Confusion confusion...
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